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[09 Jan 2006|12:26am] |
it's kind of weird when you think about me and my life. i mean i hardly care. but yeah, i was once this heroin addict and as much as i hate to admit it - i did it. and it fucked my life in the worst way. i did things i didn't want to do. i was even signed underneath bucky lasek and what did i do? i fucked it up because i thought heroin was cooler. the first reality check was when my best friend died in my arms as we both shot up. right then there i said "holy shit, that could have been me!" - so guess what i finally got clean and started to live at bam margera's house. ape was like a mother to me. she took care of me the way my mom never did. there were times where i wanted to back to heroin too just because of that lonely feeling...
but that's over with now. this is my new life. the things i've done are in the past. with the help of bam and a few of his friends, i'm a new person. i do a few things i regret though but i guess that's the part of life you got to live. for instant one of them is something i always said "that'll never happen to me" but it did. in the midst of doing my randoms as i call it, i got one pregnant. total reality check number two. so now here i am not doing heroin but fucking everyone i see ... yeah. i'm trying my hardest not do it as much as i want to. but there usually isn't a lot i can say because i kind of love sex in that fucked up way.
well i'm talking all about shit and i haven't said who i was. my name is brandon novak. and i have no shame and you've probably seen me run around naked on viva la bam or hear me talk about useless crap on his radio show about every single broad i get the chance to fuck. hah, my latest got us kicked off the air. either way you either hate me or you love me. or you really just don't give a shit. i really don't give a shit either, i just know that i'm me and i'm proud of the things i've done and i do regret the past, but the past is in the past and ones life can change around. and that is why i'm officially trying the hardest anyone can try. and with this reality check of being a father now to a beautiful boy named jackson - things just need to get settled...
on a different note. i've been practicing skateboarding too. i'm getting better and better. and i'm just so proud. so that's that. this intro will definitely not go down in history. ew.
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